Fake it Till you Make It

Let me tell you, when it comes to false self confidence, I am the Master. I put on a brave face and can me loud and opinionated. In a female production of 1776 I would be John Addams. But on the inside I am such a mess of depression, anxiety and insecurity.

But I've noticed something recently. My social anxiety and insecurity hasn't been nearly as bad as it used to be. I've slipped into my confident facade more easily, to the point it isn't entirely faked anymore. I've heard many people say the "Fake it till you make it" approach is no way to work through life. But it was the only way for me to move forward and grow.

I struggled with auditions and confidence all through college and it hurt my chances at being in shows. Even when the director told me he knew I would be great if he casted me, he was just basing off of auditions and mine suffered, because I always got so in my head with my insecurities.

I've worked on pushing the insecurities aside. Not focusing on what I can't do that someone else can, but what I can do to make myself even better. I created a mantra that I repeat to boost my confidence, or at least act like it is boosted. I'm badass, I'm talented, I'm sexy. And it helps me! My confidence sky rockets and I no longer think of the nagging feeling that I'm just not good enough. Because that's always lingering in the back of my mind.

I was talking with one of my best friends last night and she told me she was surprised to learn how insecure I was. That if I could put on such a show of confidence that she felt she could do it too. I hope that this will help her with her own insecurities and boost her confidence until one day she won't have to fake it anymore.

I feel that just about any tactic that can help you feel better and healthier about yourself should be embraced and shared to help others with the same issues.

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